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Breaking up can be so hard to do... Duplicity by
Nigel
Stones "Simple." He had to be simple,
not to get it by now. She had tried to leave him once before, but she knew now that
couldn't work. "Didn't he feed you,
Precious?" She tapped a canister of fish
food and coloured flakes rained onto the plane that separated her world from
that of her rather unusual looking goldfish. Dan had once called it a fried
egg, and looking at its white body with that single goldfish-coloured spot,
grudgingly she admitted to herself the similarity. It seemed content with its
surroundings. The exotic glass bowl she had picked could have easily have
passed as abstract sculpture. Last time she had
made the move to leave, but this time Dan would have to make the decision. "Don't worry. It
won't be for much longer." The fish sucked at the
surface. She picked up the glass
and walked towards the sound of running water. Entering the bathroom, she
watched Dan in the shower, surveyed his body. He was still in pretty good shape
after their twelve years, but it had always been more about the chemistry than
the physical. She could still recall the
scent of him in the earlier years. The scent hadn't changed. He hadn't changed.
But that was the problem: She had. What
had been a scent was now to her an odour and a persistent reminder of his
clinging sameness. She spotted a single pubic
hair on the tiled floor and glared at it with resentment. # Dan caught himself
grinding his teeth. It was late for someone to be calling. He stood just outside
the bedroom door trying to catch Malena's side of the conversation. "I tried that,"
she said. "Fights, tears, phone calls in the middle of the night,
stalking, you name it". Dan could hear nothing of
the voice on the other end of the phone. Perhaps he could use the extension in
his den to listen in. But what might be said while he was on his way there. "He started showing
up at work. What else could I do? No...
I can't just leave, It won't work...No." Anxiety, which had slept
within his chest since she had first tried to leave him, woke and probed with
its fingers for a familiar grip on his insides. "No, but I'm going to
fix it for good... It's best that I don't say. Okay, 'night." He waited there in the
hallway, first to bring the pattern of his breathing under control and then for
Malena to turn the light out. When he slipped between
the covers and wriggled close to her, she rolled her back to him and brushed
his arm away, just as she always did. # "...let's cross to
Jerry Clarke our Brisbane correspondent." "I'm standing here
with Malena Flint, the Chief Engineer of telenanonics for Genison, who earlier
today announced the successful teleportation of the first human being. Dr
Flint, many members of the scientific community are labelling this the most significant
breakthrough since Man first discovered fire, do you think this is true?" "Since humans
discovered fire... Yes, that's probably true, but to hear this described as a
breakthrough is a little strange for me. Today's announcement comes after years
of work. With the ban on the use of animals for lab testing, we've been
trialing with cadavers for a couple of years now to ensure the technology is
safe." "And I understand you
were the first living person to be teleported using the device?" "Yes, despite all the
testing, I wanted to be sure the device worked without even the slightest
chance of risk to another." "And are you able to
tell us how the machine works?" "Um, well, for those
of your viewers that have used a fax machine, think of a fax machine that
automatically shreds the original." "So the machine
actually creates a new you and then destroys the old one?" "Yes that's right; it
first renders a copy and then de-renders the orig..." With a noise like the
static crackle of one of her jumpers, Malena's image was replaced by the empty
black rectangle of the TV screen. Dan knocked the side of
the goldfish bowl with the remote. "She smiles for the friggin' camera and
she smiles for you." He took another swig of
scotch and stared again at the blinking cursor of his notebook. It begged him
for the rest of the sentence. "She'll be home
soon." The fish was unresponsive.
Of course -- it was her bloody fish. Her arrival would be as it
always was. She wouldn't comment about his drinking or the lack of progress on
the novel. She wouldn't raise her voice. She would greet him with a mechanical
kiss and then start preparing the meal he had been too busy writing to attend
to. His vision blurred as he
fought against crying. She was going to leave him
again. He knew it. Stupid fish. It swam, oblivious to its prison. The memory of the last time she
left dragged him back to the precipice at his centre. His ache felt like a wave
of vertigo and black gravity. Shit. There was nothing he could do. Her
fish spat out a chip of gravel. Her fish, her apartment, her money. He
thought of her fish flapping and gulping on her polished timber
floor. He would never do it -- She would leave him. But something about the
possibility of choice -- of control -- made him feel a little less pathetic. # Staring at his toes, he
fiddled absently with the toilet roll holder. There was no way he could go on
like this. Take charge. That's what he needed to do. That's it.
Today was a new start -- a blank page. He winced at the thought of the blank
page. A New Start. He probably couldn't do anything about the writer's
block but he could try to save his marriage. # Dan glared with venom at
the bottle of chlorine neutraliser. He was positive it was the one she said to
use. "Fuck!" The dishes were washed up;
dinner was in the oven; the chaos of papers, magazine clippings and snack food
wrappers in the study had been tidied; the water in the aquarium was now
crystal clear; he had the mother of all hangovers; she would be home any second
and the fish had shuffled off its little fishy mortal coil and was floating on
the top of the crystal clear water. "Just perfect." He unscrewed the cap off
the scotch. # "You're angry?"
he said to her. It sounded more like a statement than a question Malena's reply was
instant. "You're using that observational prowess that you writers all
have?" Dan sighed heavily and put
his hand on her shoulder. "Look, I'm sorry about the fish, okay! "You're sorry about the
fish?" He softened his voice,
trying to sound conciliatory. "Yes, I'm sorry. I don't know what
happened." She shrugged his hand away
and turned her back. For a moment she just stood there, then she rounded on
him. "What about 'I'm sorry I haven't tided up'--" "But, I did tidy
up. I --" "One day,
Dan. What about all the other
days when I never heard 'I'm sorry I didn't bother to cook a meal for you to
come home to' or 'I'm sorry I didn't get the washing done'? Or...or even 'look,
I'm sorry I didn't do any of those things, but I did get some work done on my
novel today'? That is your excuse for not doing any work around here
isn't it?" Words spilled out of him
automatically. "Oh I forgot, that's right, being a scientist is much more
important than being a writer." Malena was practically
screaming at him now. "A writer writes,
Dan. You haven't finished anything in years, let alone published anything. My
job pays the bills. It puts the roof over our heads." And that was it. He had
wasted his time trying. He knew how the argument would play out from here. They
were back on the well worn track. He'd skip to the end and save them both some
time. "You're going to leave me aren't you?" She clenched her fists so
hard that her knuckles stood out like almonds below her skin and she yelled her
frustration through gritted teeth. "I tried that," she said to him.
"Remember the phone calls, Dan, the stalking?" "So you do want to
leave?" "If I did, you
wouldn't even know. I'm Miss Cleverknickers Fucking Scientist, remember: I can just go to work, disable the derenderer
on the teleporter and create a duplicate of myself to leave behind. You would
never know." He looked at her in
horror. "But, then why would
I bother, Dan. Most of the time you're either so drunk or wrapped up in your
'I'm a writer' fantasy that the only way you'd notice was if dinner wasn't on
the table." # Malena was packing. "But it's my
birthday." Even to himself, he
sounded like a whining child. She slammed the clothes
backwards and forwards along the rail, searching for particular garments.
Impervious to the screech of steel on steel, she rough-handled them off their
hangars and onto one arm. He stood, staring at the
floor, groping for the words that would make a difference. "The seminar was
booked weeks ago. We agreed." How could he ask her to
stay without admitting he was scared of her going? "I know, but --" "I'm still
going," said Malena. That was it: End of
discussion. None of her usual neatness showed in the way she jammed clothes
into the suitcase on the bed. At least they weren't having the leaving
argument again. He bent down to pick up a
jacket that had fallen from its hanger. It was the one she wore for the news
report. He found its empty hanger and put it back on the rail, next to an
identical jacket. He examined more closely the two jackets. In each, the label was frayed leaving an
identical fringe of white threads. He
checked in the inside pocket of one of them and found a receipt. The receipt he found in the pocket of the
other jacket was a perfect copy. When he
looked at the other clothes hanging there, apart from an armful of items, each
item had a twin. # Seven hours, or
thereabouts and she hadn't phoned to let him know she'd arrived safely. He ran
his finger along the torn edge of the scrap of paper she'd left him with the
number of the resort on and then put it back on the table. Halfway to the
pantry, he turned back and made the call. "No. I'm sorry sir;
as I told you before, I am not able to divulge information on our guests. But if
your wife is here, she will have received the messages you have left." He hung up. He paced around the
apartment for an hour or so and then -- having lost count of the number of
times he had opened the fridge door, but taken nothing from it -- he had an
idea. # Dan assumed that the guard
at Genison had recognised him from the last Christmas Party, because he'd
greeted him as Mr Flint and then waved him through. He suppressed the reflex to
tell him that it was Mr Farlane and drove on to the unimpressive building that
served as Malena's lab and office. Cupping his hands to the
window, he peered down onto her desk. He had hoped for a memo, post-it note,
something, that would have a direct number to the conference. The desk was
barren. It was the same obsessive tidiness that she persisted with at home. He peered deeper past the
reflection of his own eye to a bookshelf on the back wall of the office and
there he saw, in a large beaker of water, a fish identical to the one she'd had
at home. # It took Dan a while to get
to the door. He had dozed off and his head was thick with scotch. By the time
he got there, Malena had opened it and carried her luggage in. "You're back,"
he said. She smiled. "I'm
back. Did you miss me?" For a moment he was at a
loss. It must have been six years since he'd heard her use the expression.
"Um... yeah... of course I've missed you. I couldn't contact you. I was
worried... I..." As he spoke, she crossed
the few paces between them and began playing with his collar. She inserted her
fingernail behind his top button and into the buttonhole and with a flick it
was undone. The other buttons were handled with haste, rather than finesse. He
stood there silent while she teased his chest hair with her fingers, then she
led him to the bedroom. Only after his body had
had its say, did he start to really think about what had happened. Why had
Malena suddenly changed? Even in their
early days together, she had never been this ardent. He ran his hand over the
winkles in the sheet on her side of the bed and felt there the warmth of where
they had been. She returned to the room
with a glass of scotch for him. His vague uneasiness snapped to sharp
realisation. "You're not
Malena!" She frowned and he smacked
the glass from her hand with such force that it shattered against a skirting
board. "You're not her.
Where is she?" "Dan, I don't know
what you mean. You're scaring me." He swung out of bed and
began to dress. She rushed to where he was standing and clung to him. He tried
to tell himself that this was Malena, how he'd always wanted her to be:
devoted; attentive; loving; wanting him; valuing him; respecting him. He tried,
but if it wasn't her -- the real her and not some sort of copy -- then
none of that could count. He pushed her away. He walked to the door and
grabbed his coat from the hat stand. "Where are you
going?" "I'm leaving,"
he said, opening the door. "What do you
mean? When will you be back?" "I mean I'm
leaving." He shut the door behind
him. # Malena watched him pull the
door closed. When she heard the lock click, she opened one of her suitcases and
retrieved a steel thermos. She unscrewed the thermos and carefully poured the
contents into the glass fish bowl. She smiled at the little
white goldfish with the orange spot. "Simple," she said. "I told
you it wouldn't be too much longer."
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