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If
you’re expecting brightly colored floating bits of joy… think again… The Balloons by Tom Hamilton Johnny was the one who told me that she
was still alive. "But don't go over there." He cautioned, turning his
back on me as he walked across the room. When he got to the window he told me
that he thought they had all the women they needed. He had even seen two teenaged girls walking down the street unhindered. "There aren't too many women
left." He said. "That's for sure. But there are even less men. Forget
about Anneliese man- She's gone. When things settle
down a little bit around here... well you'll have your pick." "You gotta
be crazy." I told him. I would never or could never forget about Anneliese; Her blonde strands scattering across my memory
like strips of sunny light streaming through the joined arms of the dead red
trees which grew on the despondent landscape of my nightmares; Her face as
fresh and clean as pure water coming back to me through a thicket of soot
filled and muddy mind channels. I bluntly asked him to tell me where she was. He pleaded and spoke my name, lowering
his arms in a gesture which represented calm. "Those women over there are
not just as good as dead," He implored. "I think they are dead."
"Don't say..." I began to
shout at him before stopping myself in mid-sentence. He sighed and looked at
the floor. "I'm sorry Johnny." I said much lower. "You're a good
friend to me and it's good of you to tell me. But you know I'm going to have to
go over there." He shook his head. "It's been four
years a
this shit. Wasn't it better when you thought that she was just dead or
gone?" He paused but when I didn't answer he said, "I'm only against
you seeing something that could make it even more terrible." I shook my head. "Nothing could be
more terrible than this." He scoffed and looked out the window.
"I doubt that." He said as I followed his gaze out to the mailbox.
One of the balloons- a very small version- floated up to the mailbox. There it
birthed a perfectly rectangular slab of tan meat onto the concrete. The patty
was smoothly ejected somehow from its silvery surface. Only to land softly on
the sidewalk where it sat like a piece of dung on what looked like a plain
sheet of tin foil. "Well," Johnny said. "Time for lunch. Better get it before the ants
do." I contemplated this. "Do you think
there are any ants left alive." I said.
"Besides, how do you know what they're feedin' ya won't kill ya." Johnny shrugged. "It's either that
or eat the leaves off the trees." He made a move
for the front door. "You should try it." He said. "With a little
water it's pretty swell." "Johnny?" I grabbed his arm.
"Where is she?" I could see these printed lines on his
face, as if there were black ink leaking from his brain and flooding into his
blue eyes until the thought of where she was turned them a dark purple. For a
moment I thought that he was going to tell me that I wasn't the only one who's
life had been ruined by all this: That no one had been left untouched by the
balloons: That he couldn't think of one person who hadn't lost everything. I
thought that he was going to tell me that I was acting like a spoiled child.
But instead he only shrugged and said, "The Municipal
Pool." # As I walked along the barren streets
towards downtown, I did not see any girls or women as Johnny had described. I
didn't see any men either or persons at all for that matter. Although all of the shops were closed,
they had not been boarded up nor had their outsides been desecrated. I guess
the merchants hadn't had enough time to gate the doors and windows properly.
Consequently, the stores looked as if all someone had to do was spin around the
OPEN/CLOSED sign and they would be ready for business once again. Perfectly
edible canned goods still lined the shelves inside, but these were known to be
off limits. It was probably about a two mile walk
down to Hill Street. Then twenty five blocks over to Kecksburg
Lane and perhaps another half mile to where the Municipal Pool sat on the
corner of Flatwoods and Walton. The balloons were everywhere and they
patrolled the streets endlessly. Since they were in complete control of the
city and had selected whomever they pleased to do God knows what with, those of
us who were left were allowed to roam the thoroughfares freely, so long as we
were on foot. Anyone bold enough to leap behind the wheel of a car or truck may
as well have had the grim reaper riding in the passenger seat with them. No one knew where the Balloons came
from or who's bidding it was that they had manifested onto the town. Some
people said they were from Russia, Cuba or outer space but, to my knowledge,
these tired cold war theories were never proven or even put to the test. I did
not know of one person who had ever communicated with one of the orbs in any
fashion. They came in a plethora of shapes and sizes and all the same drab iron
gray color. You could not go thirty feet in any direction without seeing one.
It was also not known as to why they were feeding what was left of the
population. ( Most of the time what they were
feeding the population was also a mystery. ) Not really being able to identify
them, everyone just started referring to them as the balloons. Which I think
was mainly because of the way that they floated around or suspended; A slow oscillating drift which was similar to the flight of
helium balloon's. ( Although
our balloons could go up, down, sideways and so on and so forth. ) But I think
that what they really were was some sort of pods. They reminded me of a
documentary I had seen on TV several years earlier. It was a dramatization
about a farmer who had spied several 'pods' as he called them, taking soil
samples from his bean field somewhere in Iowa. I myself had once watched a
small balloon absorb a rose into its metallic skin. Whether or not it was using
this as a sample or for any sort of tests were
unclear. They did not resemble any drawings or
illustrations that I had ever seen of UFOs or flying saucers. Although, as objects, they would certainly have to be classified as
unidentified. And, if they had not been identified by now, I didn't see
how they ever would be. There were no little green men, grays, or humanoid
figures of any type anywhere. At least not that I had ever
seen or heard of. Actually, it was only an assumption that they had any
connection with or to outer space at all. You could not hear any engines
running when they moved nor did they give off any
light in the extreme darkness of the neon deprived night. Again, the best way I
can think of to describe them is just to say that they looked exactly like
balloons. Two blocks from Hill Street I came along
to the powder blue body of a dead man propped up against a fire hydrant. It was
said that somehow the balloons could manipulate the life force of a human
being, and since I never really understood or figured out what that meant,
that's about as simple as I can put it. I can tell you this much; It was
cleaner and quicker than a heart attack. People simply dropped dead at the will
of the balloons. And for this reason, the gun metal grey anomalies occupied the metropolitan area without
a shot ever being fired. All law enforcement officials had been
crossed out by the balloons. Although it would have been
difficult to confirm whether or not they had been targeted specifically.
Since you could use any occupation as an example; A
doctor or a lawyer say, and you would be hard pressed to find any of these
people alive. In other words, so many human beings were dead that it could have
just been random. Although the lack of police presence was
not a problem per se. Since anyone noticed causing even the slightest
disturbance was summarily executed by the balloons. And, since you could not go
outside ( Or in some instances even inside, ) without seeing one of the orbs,
crime rates dropped to an all time low right along side
the population. As I turned onto Hill Street, on of the bigger balloons was floating down the street
about three stories up. Another smaller one was following close behind. It was
like a nightmarish farce of the Macy's day parade. On some of the larger
balloons, long spindly sticks jutted out from their sides like the thin legs of
arachnids. These legs appeared to push the balloons away from the buildings,
thereby preventing them from scraping against the bricks or hard corners.
Whether or not there were any beings inside the big balloons, or whether they
were some type of creatures themselves, was also unclear. A horrid gray rain began to cascade
down from the metallic clouds, loaning a sheen to the
excessive number of balloons Which filled the shallow sky. The streets were
slick, but there was no longer any rush hour or worry of automobile accidents
to contend with. Wet garbage clogged the curbs and drains. A traffic light
which was stuck on red, or rather, stuck on stop, blinked like a winking
crimson eye squinting from the drizzle. As I came to Kecksburg
Lane I picked up on a flash of motion and color on the other side of the
intersection. In a never ending wall of blackish glass, which had once been the
window of the Oldsmobile showroom, I saw the reflection of a disheveled and
bedraggled girl. Before her actual figure came into view from
behind the decaying frame of a furniture truck. She was wearing a long,
furry brown coat over a stained and dingy party dress. She looked like she'd
been living outside for weeks. When she saw me, she immediately began
walking towards me, and that's when I noticed that there were three little
balloons following behind here like puppy dogs on an invisible leash. "Hey Sir!?"
She said, hair in tatters, wild as an unkept field. "Hey Sir?! Do
you have any food?" When she stopped, her balloons stopped. I shook my
head no. She lowered the coat down off of her
shoulders and began unbuttoning the dress. I raised my hand to object but this
did not stop her. Soon she was showing me her red chest, which was housed in a slash
of black bra. "Now do you have any food?" She said, swaying
seductively. I looked at her coldly and then glanced down at the ominous
balloons. "OH don't mind them." She said.
"They like to watch." I told her that, if I had any food, I
would readily give it to her and ask nothing in return. "Besides."
I wondered aloud. I couldn't understand why she needed food since the balloons
were supplying it to everyone. ( Although their motive
for this was murky at best). "Maybe I don't like the
cuisine." She quipped, pulling the coat back up onto her shoulders and
sticking her nose in the air. With that she walked away, the balloons bobbing
behind her like a banner being pulled by a plane. As I negotiated the final blocks I felt
like my stomach was full of salt water and the muscles in my legs began to
harden and spasm. I hadn't been getting very much exercise lately; lying in bed
under waves of blankets, watching the incessant shadows of circles on the wall.
The scent of Anneliese's skin cream
on the deserted sheets. The stolen specter of feminine
powders and perfumes saturating the pillow cases. Sinking
under the waterline into a paranoid sleep. Balloons in
the room, bouncing off the ceiling, trying to escape as if they really were
trapped or full of helium. But they would never just drift away in the
sky... drift away in the sky. My knees were heated like half coconut
shells baking on a tropical island and my buttocks felt equally as greasy as I
came to my destination. The Municipal Pool came into view looking as ordinary
as any YWCA. As I got closer the frame of a young man who was standing at the
front door came into focus. He was clean cut, shaven, well nourished,
privileged. He was holding what looked like a long stick in his hand and, as I
got closer, I could see that it was a shotgun. He
barley acknowledged me. "I'm looking for a woman." I
queried. "I think you may have her inside there?" He looked me up and down, the shotgun
pointed at the sky. "Yeah," He began. "We got lots a women in there. Ya got any
money?" I looked down at the concrete and shook
my head. "Let me ask you a question." I said pointedly. "What
good does money do you or anybody else now?" Even as I said this, I
realized that I still had a whole wallet full of twenties that I just could not
bring myself to throw away. He whistled a sigh,
his patience seemed to be evaporating. "Do you have any money or
not?!" "YEAH.!"
I growled. "I got money." "Go through there," He began
a little nicer, like he just wanted to get rid of me and an argument would only
prolong my standing there. "Talk to the guy behind the desk." I walked through the clear glass doors,
then through a brief breezeway, before quickly locating the 'desk' which was
really just a white card table. The fellow who was sitting behind it must have
thought that he was some sort of art type, for he was wearing an impeccably
shaved goatee and a tam. There was a metal strong box
sitting in front of him. A row of plastic slats rose from inside it to support
a bevy of assorted bills. "Hi." He said with surprising
friendliness. I nodded. "Have you been here before?"
He asked through the beard. I shook my head no. "For five dollars admission; You can select any girl from the pool area for one on one
time in a private enclave, one dollar per minute with a minimum of twenty
minutes. Got it?" I indicated that I did before pulling
the rumpled notes out of my disintegrating billfold. Past my permanently
expired driver's license, credit cards, social security. I had hundreds of
dollars in there. I hadn't spent a penny in over a year. I handed over a twenty
and a rumpled Lincoln which, I guess, were not so worthless after all. He put
it in the strong box. "Have a good time." He said. I had been swimming here on one
occasion many years ago. But the pool area was now drastically different then
it had been at that time. No one had bothered to mop in a while and, what
looked like, black drag marks intersected on various points of the tile floor.
All the deck chairs and lawn furniture had been removed save for one crooked
umbrella shading a plain grey folding chair. Where a second
man, also wielding a shotgun, sat grimly. The setting sun, its light the
hue of a black rose, tried to strain past some sinking clouds to peer through
the high rectangular windows. I could not imagine why these men
figured that they needed shotguns? Weapons certainly were not required to
control the remaining population. The balloons had already established that
dominance without so much as a shot ever being fired.
Or, if these men were against the balloons, which it was obvious from their
actions that they were not, their guns would have been totally useless against
such a powerful and enigmatic force as the orbs anyway. One of the biggest balloons I had ever
seen was either attached to or scraping against the high ceiling. It was
rotating slowly, like the hand which measures seconds on a clock. Dozens of
spindly legs sprouted out from it at various angles and degrees like the limbs
of some mystery arachnid. These apparatuses curved and dropped down from the body
like long steam hoses. There, they were somehow fashioned to the backs of
scores of women. The females milled through the waist deep septic water. The
pool had been partially drained and what was left of the aqua was browned and
rancid. Most of them were stripped naked with their pale breasts sagging. Their
eyes were the eyes of taxidermy animals, as if their gaze had been laminated,
covered over by a coat of plastic. They shuffled around slowly in an uninspired
circle, goaded along by the tentacles of the pod, mechanical as carousel
ponies. Mirroring their bitter sleepwalk I
shuffled to the edge of the pool and stared in at them in disbelief. Of all the
many unfortunate ladies sifting through this cesspool broth, I did not see Anneliese anywhere among them. "See anything ya
like?" The man with the shotgun had gotten up
from the plain grey folding chair to stand with me by the side of the pool. He
was very muscular and his head looked like a concrete block with black
sideburns. The rifle was down at his side like he was about to run through a
'taps' routine. I resisted an overpowering impulse to try and drive my fist
through his nose. Because I knew that if I did that, I would either be killed,
which I didn't really have any aversion to, or that I would never see Anneliese again, which I could not bear the thought of. "Um," I tried to play ball.
"I have a favorite you see, a blonde girl about five foot five, five foot
six she..." "Look friend," He interrupted me.
"They all look the same to me." Hurt and confused, I babbled on.
"Yeah well, is this everyone? I mean, are there more? Are they all
here?" His brow zigzagged. He was starting to
get annoyed with my questions. "A few of the girls are tied up right
now," He gestured with his hand towards nowhere. "But you can't stay
in here. Why don't you just pick another one out for today?" My eyebrows arched. I could feel the
sadness collapsing in my mind like a flash flood sweeping towards a rickety
dam. Near tears, I shook my head. "No," I pleaded. "I really
can't see anyone else but her." Noticing the hint of spray in my eyes
must have alerted him to my true mission. For he raised the
rifle to his chest like a karate pole and pushed it towards me.
"Move out asshole!" He said meanly. I put up my hands. Not really
resisting, yet not really retreating. "I said MOVE OUT!" He looked
like he was about to swing the butt at my jaw until a new man stopped him by
putting his hand on the barrel. "It's o.k. Eric," The new man
said. "Go have a smoke, I'll sort this out." Eric smiled at the
second man. Gave me a final dire stare then walked out of the pool area. The second man was very young and
unusually handsome. He was tall with blonde streaks through his long rocker's
hairdo and tan like a surfer dude. Though I doubt that he or
anyone else had been riding the waves lately. "What do you want?" He said
harshly, but his eyes were kinder. "I want a girl," I said.
"What else?" "Cut the crap." He barked
back. "I should have let Eric waste you. Why don't you get the hell out of
here?" "I paid my money." I claimed.
"Just like everybody else." "Look man," His voice dropped
down and lost its curtness. "I'm just trying to tell you for your own
good. If you've got an old lady or a daughter or somethin'
in here... just let it go man. This place is a bad scene." "Thanks for the advice." I
quipped rudely. "But if it's such a bad scene what are all you assholes doin' in here? I mean how the hell can you be sucking the
ass a these monsters just for clean clothes and a
haircut?" He bit his lip and shook his head.
"O.K. asshole," He began. 'You think you know about everything there
is to know huh? Why don't you come with me?" He walked across the browned
tiles and I followed. He ushered me into a side room lounge where a drab and
faded plaid couch was flanked by two loud orange chairs. "Sit right here."
He said. "The rest of the girls will be rinsing off any time now."
With that he ducked out of the lounge. As I sat down on the couch, a musty moth
born stink bubbled
out from the dusty cushions. As if the furniture had been
sitting in an abandoned lot or a junk covered field. When I was sure he
was gone, I put my face in my hands and began to weep. After about a minute of miserable
heaving I un-tucked my T-shirt and dried my eyes with it. After that I just
stared blankly at the block wall until the blonde fellow came back in. His
kinder side had won out. "Look," He began. "Why don't you just
go on home man? Even if you have someone here... I can promise you that they're
no longer anyone you want to see." I looked at him frankly, my lips
trembling. But before I could even say anything yet another unseen voice from
behind the door said, "What are you a fuckin'
guidance councilor? If the asshole wants to see some bitch let him see
here." It was the horridly scratchy voice of a wretchedly thin and
wrinkled woman. Her nose hooked through the doorway, curious and vicious like
some predator bird. She stood in the open threshold with her hands on her hips
and tapped her foot at the young man like an impatient girlfriend trying to
extract a boozing fiancee from a bar. The blonde boy
looked at me almost sadly and said, "All the girls are back
now, if you'd like to go have a look? If you don't see your favorite in there
now, I don't know what to tell you." Acting like he'd washed his hands of
the situation the aryan
haired boy walked out. I followed him and the evil woman out into the pool
area. Somewhere outside, the sound of a train snaked through the comatose city
and I couldn't imagine who might be driving it or why? But this time, and almost as soon as I
walked through the door, I could see Anneliese's
luminous and original blonde hair sticking out among the crowd like a golden
coin in a pile of grimy pennies. "That one," I said, finally
as cold as them. "The blonde." Neither of my hosts answered, but
almost as soon as the words left my mouth, the spindly silver appendage pulled Anneliese's naked body from the putrid water. Her hairy
legs, which had not been shaved in weeks, shined and dripped the brownish liquid.
Her head lolled groggily and rolled on her shoulders to one side. Just from
that fleeting glance it looked as if she'd gained a little weight. Then she was
out of view, pulled by the pod's tentacle over a block wall and into a
separate room. Evidently, the top rows of the blocks had been removed to
accommodate the awe inspiring pod. "Go through there." The
horrid woman said. I quickly obliged, almost slipping on the slimy tiles. As I
hurried past the pool a second girl was troweled out.
Her dark skin looking almost purple in the dusky light which
continued, duller now, to streak through the high windows. Thick
varicose veins were noticeable on her legs as she also went over the wall. The door to this new room had been
removed and upon entering I spied a sentry; An aging
man with graying sideburns sitting on a bar stool around a high table. Blurry
tattoos of a long defeated and disbanded navy were sketched onto his forearms.
The shotgun was lying across that stand next to a half empty pint of Jim Beam.
Thick cigar smoke was slowly escaping from the doorway. He looked at me without
much interest, exhaled a smoky mouthful of his pungent cuban, nodded and said, "Fourth stall." I looked to my right down a long
hallway. Where freckles of light sprinkled onto the partially
busted tiles. Evidently this was where the shower or changing room had
once been located. As I got to the first stall, I could now see that a spotted
and stained mattress had been dumped over the shower's drain. A naked girl was laying on top of it, her eyes looked empty, as if she had a
bullet lodged in her brain. A second girl, who was fully clothed in a long over
coat, lay on the mattress with her, hugging her, tears streaming from both
their eyes. She looked enough like the naked girl to be her sister. I paused
momentarily, lifting my hand as if to help them or say something. But before I
could, I felt the butt of the rifle in the small of my back. It was the
grizzled guard ushering me along. "Stall four." He said,
his casual tone and countenance replaced by a meaner demeanor. The second stall was empty, with only a
blackened mattress laying sideways under a torn shower
curtain. The third stall had no shower curtain
and I could see the wide back of a rotund man. Thick doodles of dark hair were
scribbled all over his shoulder blades. He was bent over the woman from the
pool, the one with the varicose veins. He looked up as I past, a beard which
had similar circular whiskers as the ones growing from his back covered his
puffy face. Spit flew from his mouth as he addressed me. "She used to be a stuck up
bitch." He rationalized. "I used to see her every day at First
National... She wouldn't even say hi to me." I said nothing as I walked
past. A dried condom was splotched onto the wall. Anneliese was
in the fourth stall, laying half in and half out of the shower. They must have
ran out of mattresses, since her legs were curled under her limp body and her
blonde hair lolled wet against the raised step at the entrance to the stall. I
slowly got around behind her and cradled her head in my lap. The strands of her
locks felt waxy or coated over, like sludge or seaweed. Her mindless eyes had
thick purple crescents
underneath them and her lips were slit with miniscule cuts and
small pin head sized cold sores. She was still soaked and the septic water from
the pool seeped onto my pants and shirt. These girls and woman had been
conditioned somehow and she could not talk. A sizzle of slobber ran from the
slack corner of her mouth. I closed my eyes and tried to take in
her scent. But I could not overcome the fecal reek of the Municipal Pool. A white fire like loud static spread across my brain like windy
flames across dry grass. My mind nearly exploded from the sadness and I
prayed that I would go mad so I could abandon all rational thought. In my grief
my eyes ran down over Anneliese's violated body.
That's when I noticed just a hint of mint green branching out from underneath
her arm pits. Her nipples were... crooked almost, one higher than the other,
like a shirt which had been put on inside out. Her fingers were thicker, not as dainty as I remembered. The toes on her feet
were more rectangular, her biceps more muscular. Her legs were obviously
shorter then I recalled and that's when I realized; It
was Anneliese's head and face but it was not her
body. "Ohhh Ohhh," I said and stared high up at the block walls,
salty tears stunning my lips. I reached into the side pocket of my pants and
pulled out the knife. The Confederate Generals stared at me from its
commemorative handle. Without thinking another thought I plunged the blade into
the chest of whoever's body that it was. Anneliese's
face groaned weakly and, for a diced instant, I thought that I could see a
gleam. A glimpse of some recognition either of or by her: The real Anneliese. Then the eyes waxed over again and half closed
while all the air escaped through the hole I had made in her transplanted
chest. Like all of the air scuttling out from the inside of a balloon.