Date: 10/1/2358 Time: 18:12

I got some very disturbing news today from Mr. Stryker. Lester Donovan was murdered down in UAP. I have know idea what he was doing in that section of Genesis. It is inconceivable to me that murder is possible on this vessel, but I'm afraid it still happens too often.

What I find most disturbing is that this doesn't appear to be a simple robbery. According to Mr. Stryker, their doesn't appear to be a motive. I've authorized him to use whatever means necessary to find the animal that did this. I've also asked that he keep it from the media.

I will miss my golf games with Lester. He was a lovely man.

Date: 10/10/2358 Time: 16:33

That idiot Andrews came by again today to harrass me about the birth restrictions. That moron actually suggested we space some of the first generation to make room for "new blood". I was tempted to have security come and throw Andrews and his cronies out on their butts!

Patricia called me today. She was hinting around that she wanted an exception to the two child per family limitation so should could have another girl. My own daughter! I told her about Andrews' visit and the hinting ceased. I hope this is a dead issue. I love my two grandchildren, but it would be entirely unfair (and politically disasterous!) for me to grant an exception for my daughter when so many others are making the same request.

Date: 10/12/2358 Time: 18:33

Allison and I finally got to go on our picnic today. I've been trying to hide my feelings about Lester, but it's been very difficult. Maybe I've been trying to hide them from myself also. Our tryst was over ten years ago and for a short period of time.

He was such a gentleman. He knew where I was headed politically, but he never used our affair against me in all the years that followed. He never even used that knowledge to better his position within the Administration. I think I loved him all the more for that.

As each day goes by I become more incapacitated by my feelings for Lester and realization that he is gone. Some how always knowing he was there, just down the corridor, made me feel good. I continue to go about my duties in a haze and I think people are noticing. I don't know what to do.

Date: 10/15/2358 Time: 20:09

I've decided I'm going to take a vacation for a couple of weeks. People are starting to notice my... depression. Admiral Richards cut short our status meeting today and I know it was because I couldn't concentrate. I haven't had a vacation in two years. I'm due. Maybe I should show Alex the same attention I've been give to Lester. I've always loved him and he's been a good husband. Lester will always haunt me...

Date: 11/06/2358 Time: 08:00

I knew it was time to get back to work, but I never thought it would be to this kind of tradegy. MILCOM and Maintenance are running around like a bunch of ants. Thank God there was no threat to the structural integrity of Genesis. We're having an emergency meeting this morning at ten. I'm glad I've had the time off. I feel strong and ready to deal with an issue of this magnitude.

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